True Story: I’ve Been Slacking

I’ve hesitated writing this post for a little while now because I honestly feel like a broken record. I’ve been struggling with the same few pounds for several months and keep vowing to recommit and restart, and just haven’t. The past two weeks have been particularly bad because not only have I been eating pretty poorly and far too much like has been the case for several months, but I’ve also been really inconsistent about exercising. And now, 3/4 of the way through my half marathon training, is not the time to start slacking.

I think the bottom line is no matter where you are into your journey, you have to fight for it. Every day. There’s a part of me that will always choose sleeping in over getting up to workout, french fries over a side salad, and eating to the point of being uncomfortable instead of satisfaction. Lately, I feel like I’ve let that part of me take over way too much of my decision making.

Last week, I didn’t go to the gym or run outside ONCE. I did my 10 mile run last Saturday, and then didn’t do any form of physical activity (besides walk or bike to work) for the entire week until yesterday. I’ve been having a lot of trouble getting up to workout before work, and I know that’s what i need to do to be consistent because I have so much going on at night and it’s too easy to make excuses for other things I need to do.

So yesterday morning when I woke up, rather than sit in bed watching Gossip Girl for a few hours like I did on Saturday (I know), I got right up and headed to the gym. Even though I had 9.3 miles on my training schedule, I just could not convince myself to want to do it. Rather than avoid activity all together like I’d been doing the last two weeks when that has happened, I decided to walk to the gym and do SOMETHING.

I got on the treadmill and ended up running 2.5 miles before having to stop because I got a nasty blister on my right foot. I think my feet were starting to forget what running shoes felt like… After I had to stop running, I went on the stairmaster for 20 minutes, and then I did some stretching, ab work, and pushups. One hour and almost 700 calories later, I remembered why my body loves exercise.

And, I’m not sure if it’s a coincidence or not, but the meeting topic this week for Weight Watchers is “Move More, No Excuses.” Lately, I’ve felt like the meetings I’ve been leading have been more for me than for the members!

After getting home yesterday, I made myself a healthy breakfast of scrambled eggs on an english muffin with salsa and grapes, and then spent a little time working on a menu plan for the week.

Here’s what I came up with:

Breakfast Lunch Snack Dinner
Monday Savory Oatmeal w/Spinach + Cheese Tempeh Chili Verde Grapefruit + Cottage Cheese WW Pasta w/chicken sausage + sauce
Tuesday Pumpkin Oats w/cottage cheese Tempeh Chili Verde Egg drop soup, pear Spicy Lentil Tacos
Wednesday English Muffin w/PB + Banana Spicy Lentil Taco Salad Grapes + Greek Yogurt Scrambled Eggs w/Black Beans, Cheese, Salsa + Corn Tortillas
Thursday Savory Oats Tempeh Chili Verde Banana mashed w/ Greek Yogurt + Stevia
Friday WW Waffles w/PB + Banana Spicy Lentil Taco Salad Grapefruit + Greek Yogurt TBD

 

Just having a plan in place makes me feel a lot better, and my goal is to use this week to really transition my body back into workout out consistently in the mornings. When I do, I set each day up for success and make better eating decisions because I think twice about reaching for a (third) cookie in the office, or going out for lunch rather than eating what I have packed.

My goals for today:

    1. Drink 2 bottles of water while at work.
    2. Get outside for a 10 minute walk mid-day.
    3. Get into bed by 10:30pm.

What’s one thing you want to focus on today or this week?

Let’s do this!

46 Comments on True Story: I’ve Been Slacking

  1. Lauren
    February 27, 2012 at 9:08 am (9 years ago)

    It’s so normal to feel this way. I know there are periods when I am SOO ON and others when all I want to do is just curl into a ball and forget the world. I guess that’s all a part of life and like you said…the journey. Because you know, it wouldn’t be worth having if it weren’t worth fighting for. 🙂 Hang in there girl, you’re doing amazing!

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  2. Emily
    February 27, 2012 at 9:11 am (9 years ago)

    Beth, I am going through the same thing right now! I am right there with you, having to fight for it every day. It’s a tightrope walk every day, and some days/weeks/months are better than others.

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:09 pm (9 years ago)

      Hi Emily. I totally agree – sometimes it takes a lot less effort, but times like right now it takes every ounce of motivation to stay on track!

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  3. Sarah
    February 27, 2012 at 9:15 am (9 years ago)

    I completely agree with your bottom line! It’s SO hard to fight for things everyday, because it gets discouraging and it seems monotonous… I always have to remind myself of my favorite bible verse about self-discipline from 1st Corinthians: “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.”

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:11 pm (9 years ago)

      What a great verse. Thank you for sharing!!

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  4. Logan
    February 27, 2012 at 9:16 am (9 years ago)

    Do you think that trying to run such long distances is contributing to you feeling like this? I sometimes feel that I have run so much one day that I can reward myself by eating a little unhealthy and having several “rest” days. I think really hard exercise also makes me more hungry in general. Are you trying to force yourself to run, when maybe it isn’t something that you actually enjoy? You seem to have laid out a good eating plan for the week, so just focus on that and then add back the exercise as more of a fun activity.

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:15 pm (9 years ago)

      I think that is definitely a part of it… Especially with the “all or nothing” mentality with exercise. The half is two weeks from Saturday, so the end is in sight with training. I do actually like to run – its such a mental release for me, but I think I prefer the 4-5 mile amount rather than 10-12. 😛

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  5. Carol
    February 27, 2012 at 9:28 am (9 years ago)

    Hi Beth,
    You are awesome for being so honest. I really appreciate that. I agree, making a plan and setting goals helps us stay in the game. Trust me, I am losing 80 pounds again that I lost. I was just so blah about it and defeated. But I got up, faced my weird fears and joined WW again. I just have to keep myself motivated, one step at a time

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:16 pm (9 years ago)

      Hi Carol – Thanks for your comment. Honest is something I always try to be – whether it’s pretty or not!

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  6. Katie Photiadis
    February 27, 2012 at 9:48 am (9 years ago)

    Beth,

    I love this post! I think that so many of us can relate to having moments when you choose the fries over the salad or when you choose to lie in bed and watch Gossip Girl (or Gilmore Girls, lol) rather than exercise. I think it always takes a push to get us to be healthy, no matter how committed we are to wellness.

    I think an interesting part of your post was about summoning the motivation to do “something” rather than run 12 miles. It’s possible that marathon training is inadvertently raising the bar so high that it’s making it difficult for you to get motivated to do anything. Almost intimidating, so to speak. After the marathon, maybe you should re-evaluate your fitness goals to avoid running into this problem.

    Good luck!

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:17 pm (9 years ago)

      That’s definitely possible – and probable. I am looking forward to working out and just doing what I want to/feel like doing once the half is over – two weeks from Sat!

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  7. Sheri
    February 27, 2012 at 10:03 am (9 years ago)

    I really struggled to get out of bed this morning for my workout. The only thing that got me up was knowing how great I would feel the rest of the day if I did, and how I would feel blah if I didn’t. I also know that if I go M, W & F, then I can sleep in T & R. It’s tough, but I’m happy that I got through it today!

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  8. Lauren @ Oatmeal after Spinning
    February 27, 2012 at 10:11 am (9 years ago)

    I have to say- it’s really, really hard when it’s just 10 lbs or so (or whatever) that you’re trying to lose. And sometimes motivation to do so in nowhere in sight. I feel for you so much in this post! For me, I need some big ‘punch in the face’ to be inspired and make me get my butt in gear. I know that my body loves exercise, and have to stick to a routine since I’m an instructor- but the food thing is much harder for me. I know that having a few extra calories or a beer or a dessert won’t hurt my diet in the long run, but it certainly doesn’t help it. It’s hard to keep going sometimes when it seems to take forever to just lose a pound- but you just have to find something that keeps you going. I relate so much to every post you write- and it helps to keep me motivated too!
    Last week I started PLANNING every meal and snack for the first time. I usually just planned dinner – if that – for the week. And it really helped me stay focused! Now, in my second week in of my new PLAN I just have to remember that all of my little changes will add up if I stick with it- but if I don’t- all of this hard work will be for nothing.
    All in all, you’re doing great, Beth. I’m sure that big surge of motivation is right around the corner- along with spring!

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  9. Lindsay @ The Reluctant Runner
    February 27, 2012 at 10:29 am (9 years ago)

    I’m glad you wrote this post, because it’s something that I can really relate to. Sometimes I feel really on the ball with nutrition & exercise, and other times I feel completely out of control, with zero motivation to exercise and full motivation to eat candy. I think that acknowledging that you are struggling really helps you regain focus, and I wish you luck with that! This week my goal is to not have desert until the weekend. I find that when I don’t set boundaries on my desert consumption, it tends to get out of control.

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  10. Melanie
    February 27, 2012 at 10:29 am (9 years ago)

    Beth I am in the exact same situation! I am about 10 or 12 lbs above my goal and it’s making me crazy!! I can’t seem to find the motivation to count points diligently or workout regularly. I lost 70 lbs with WW and am so very thankful for making goal and lifetime so what’s my problem! I counted my breakfast this morning and will count the rest of the day – I’m also going to the gym tonite after work.

    Sounds like you have a good plan this week! I need to try those lentil tacos! I also want to try your skillet souffle!

    Oh just FYI that I go to the WW on K near McPherson Sq. I haven’t been going to meetings regularly but also love the Saturday morning meeting at that location. So exciting you are a leader now! Congrats!

    Thanks for letting me vent here! Have a great on program day!!

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  11. Jessica D
    February 27, 2012 at 11:11 am (9 years ago)

    I’ll join you for a 10 minute walk!

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:05 pm (9 years ago)

      Ohhh I’m gonna hold you to that! 🙂

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  12. Ash Bear
    February 27, 2012 at 11:21 am (9 years ago)

    I can totally relate as it never gets easier. I’m not perfect with my eating and am normally better with my workouts than most. But, a workout won’t help if I’m indulging in sweets and bar food later. Therefore, I’ve made a concerted effort to clean up my eating to help balance and make a difference. I struggle with the sleep part a lot as I’d rather stay up and hang out with Bo than go to bed at 10pm! Thanks for being honest!!

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  13. Tori
    February 27, 2012 at 11:26 am (9 years ago)

    Beth, I have let myself go as well. I had to grieve for awhile during Dad’s passing and that affected my body so much that my mind wasn’t aware of it. Finally, my body is JUST getting back to normal and my mind realizes “Oh man, look what happened.” I gained 10lbs since December. I am going to be learning sword fighting and would soon love to learn how to belly dance, but I still have to learn to have a routine. I should be up at 5am excersizing, going to sleep at 10:30pm. It is hard to do when date night starts at 11pm! How easy it is to feel lazy. Laziness is the enemy. Sometimes we all need to kick our butts into high gear, go into “Marine Mode” as my other half calls it. How does one stay focused if they are too overwhelmed? Many times I have found myself overwhelmed and I forget what I need to do, regretting later “Damn, I was supposed to do that!” Working out can wind up like Laundry, if you think about it staring at it with dread, its only going to pile up and make you feel worse. Quit thinking, start acting is probably best!

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  14. Brooke
    February 27, 2012 at 11:43 am (9 years ago)

    Thank you for posting about this, it’s reassuring to know that other people feel this way. I had a lot of success with WW about 2 years ago (lost 25 pounds), but in the past 2 years the weight has slowly come back. I was frustrated this week to see that I’m close to my starting weight again. I’ve been slacking, I know it, and I need to get back on track. Thank you for reminding me that this is a common experience and that I need to push through it!

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  15. Gretchen @ Honey, I Shrunk the Gretchen!
    February 27, 2012 at 11:57 am (9 years ago)

    Things come in droves, don’t they? I’m in the same boat, Bethers, and I keep telling myself I’m recommitting and I’m doing it for good, but what it really comes down to is that I just feel like I’ve already been doing it so long. I think it’s natural that we need to take a break, let things slide a little. We’re only human, after all. And your continuing to try, to come back, PLUS how inspirational your story is to begin with? You’re still inspiring me, that’s for sure!!

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  16. Michael
    February 27, 2012 at 12:29 pm (9 years ago)

    I’m having this same problem. It’s so much easier to get the fries, stay in bed or overeat. Lat week though I made a conscious effort to plan, track and eat more soup, salad and fruits. It paid off! I was down 1.2 at my weigh-in on Saturday!

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  17. Kris
    February 27, 2012 at 12:39 pm (9 years ago)

    One question – how do you figure out how many calories you burn at the gym?
    As an example, I typically run 4 miles in 30 minutes on the elliptical and take an ab class, OR do 45 minutes of weight training and take an ab class. I typically do this 5x a week.

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 1:03 pm (9 years ago)

      Hi Kris! Sounds like you’ve been doing killer workouts! I use a Polar Heart Rate Monitor to track how many calories I burn at the gym. Here’s a link to the one I use on amazon: http://tinyurl.com/7uw7g9t I really love using it when I’m working out inside or even if I’m going out for a run and not focusing on mileage/pace. It’s very accurate, much more so than what the machines tell you.

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      • Kris
        February 27, 2012 at 1:49 pm (9 years ago)

        Thanks for the response, Beth. I really appreciate your honesty and admire you for getting back on the horse!
        One more question, how reliable are those counters that are on the elliptical/treadmill?

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  18. Gwen
    February 27, 2012 at 12:59 pm (9 years ago)

    It gets hard. But it can be done. Get it under wraps now before you find yourself back at the start like me. You got this, girl! xo

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  19. Heather
    February 27, 2012 at 1:23 pm (9 years ago)

    I gave myself the same pep talk a couple weeks ago. I felt like I had been doing pretty well with eating and working out, but the scale was not budging. I did an honest assessment of my eating though and found that I could probably spruce up a few places in my diet.

    I just told myself to never give up and always keep pushing for what I want. In this case it’s to lose a few pounds, and my attitude change helped immensely. Have seen the scale go down two weeks in a row now!

    Keep it up, and never give up!

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  20. Lori
    February 27, 2012 at 2:17 pm (9 years ago)

    I think the really hard part of maintaining is getting back into losing mode and staying there when you need to. That is the struggle I have now as well.

    My goal this week is no extra nibbling!

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  21. Lisa
    February 27, 2012 at 2:43 pm (9 years ago)

    Sorry you are struggling! I wondered if you were because you’ve been so quiet from the ‘nets.

    But, it’s normal. I went through that “I so don’t feel like doing _____” after I reached goal. I didn’t think I needed to count my calories anymore because I had it down! Problem was, my eyes have always been and always will be bigger than my stomach. I was overeating and not tracking and started to gain again. Nip it in the bud now!

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  22. Maria
    February 27, 2012 at 3:39 pm (9 years ago)

    I was in a similar place on Saturday. I wanted to get my 10 miles in before my hair cut to make the blow out last longer but I got scared because I didn’t leave myself enough time before I had to go to get the run in. Instead of giving up completely, I changed out of my outdoor clothes and went into the gym for 30min of cardio. Something is better than nothing! And then luckily, I summoned the courage to tackle the long mileage on Sunday. It’s so relieving to hear even a seasoned half-marathoner still goes through the same thing I do 🙂

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  23. Hilary
    February 27, 2012 at 4:50 pm (9 years ago)

    As always, love your honesty. And love that you are a WW leader who is not afraid to admit that you’re still struggling. I know you CAN do this! This week, I’m trying to focus more on listening to my body and its hunger cues. I’m reading the book “Intuitive Eating” and LOVING it, so I want to try and apply some of what I’m learning.

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  24. Joanna
    February 27, 2012 at 5:45 pm (9 years ago)

    Beth,
    What you’ve been feeling must be going around, b/c I’ve slipped back into some of my old (bad) habits too. But just admitting it is the first step towards change! So good for you for that. I’m now a certified Personal Trainer, and I still have to push myself to get out of bed and get to the gym some days. So honestly, don’t be so hard on yourself. You are human! Just keep doing what you’re doing, and taking it one day at a time. I think you’ve done pretty frickin fantastic so far 🙂

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 10:54 pm (9 years ago)

      Thanks Joanna. Your comment means a lot. 🙂

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  25. Samantha
    February 27, 2012 at 8:39 pm (9 years ago)

    Hi Beth! I found your blog a month or so ago and now I check your blog all the time! I am also on WW and training for the Broad Street Run ( My 1st long race). I am now up to 8 miles myself and it’s hard getting pumped for such a long run. But I never regret a workout when it is over and that is what I tell myself.

    Just think about that feeling when you see on your HRM that you hit your goal- it is the best feeling in the world. It is the one thing that is guaranteed to leave you with such a great sense of accomplishment. GL – you have great times- I’d love to get below 10 minute miles!

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 10:53 pm (9 years ago)

      Hi Samantha – I’m running Broad Street too!! If you’re already up to 8 miles you will do awesome!!

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  26. Sarah
    February 27, 2012 at 9:58 pm (9 years ago)

    I’m sorry you’re struggling! February has been a rough month for me too. Life comes in waves of good/bad and I think it’s good to reset and re-establish goals.

    I don’t want to be too forward, but have you thought about talking to a professional? I know that losing weight can be emotionally difficult (even once you’ve lost the weight) and I know that speaking with a professional therapist has really helped me in the past!

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    • Beth
      February 27, 2012 at 10:53 pm (9 years ago)

      No such thing as too forward in this forum. 😛 And yes, I’ve thought about it but haven’t taken the plunge. If you have any recommendations for anyone in the area, I’m all ears!

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  27. Caitlin
    February 28, 2012 at 1:13 am (9 years ago)

    I just adore you. You are so honest and it’s so helpful because so many people (myself included) are in your same boat. I have the workouts down – I border on not taking enough rest days, so I totally make excuses for eating more/worse based on my activity level. I often think compared to where I started, I am SO much healthier (not eating whatever I want in whatever quantities I want) so sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t be struggling so much. Thanks for the reminder that it’s a daily practice!

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  28. The Mrs @ Success Along the Weigh
    February 28, 2012 at 7:54 am (9 years ago)

    When we first started losing weight, I told the Mr “welcome to the rest of our lives because this is it!” Losing weight is hard, maintenance, I suspect, is harder. Keep up the good fight!

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  29. Life's a Bowl
    February 28, 2012 at 9:21 am (9 years ago)

    I’ve been struggling with my 2012 goals lately but rather than letting them bring me down, I decided to change them to better fit my lifestyle. Sometimes something sounds great in our mind but just isn’t practical… Remember to highlight the little goals you accomplish each day and be proud of yourself!

    P.S. Your menu looks tasty! I need to start cooking with lentils more often…

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  30. Nan
    February 28, 2012 at 9:43 am (9 years ago)

    “I think the bottom line is no matter where you are into your journey, you have to fight for it. Every day” soooo true…
    I come across this feelings quite often…and I know how it gets tough to push oneselves to get into the exercise groove…
    When I come across that feeling I read inspiring real life stories…like yours for example 🙂 and that in some way gives me that push… And once I get done with my workout I feel great and achieved…
    Regards,
    Nan

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  31. Mindy Lipsky
    February 28, 2012 at 11:44 am (9 years ago)

    Thank you for sharing with us… as you can see you are not alone! I have been struggling myself as well! Just remember each day is a new day where we get to start over. We’ll get this! Best of Luck to you! And to the rest of us in the same boat! (((HUGS)))

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  32. nicole
    February 28, 2012 at 10:06 pm (9 years ago)

    Don’t be so hard on yourself! You’re just like the other gazillion people out there reading blogs everyday trying to get healthy. Anyone who says they prefer a salad over pizza or fries is not being honest with themselves! LOL And who wouldn’t rather lounge in bed and watch TV. I would! The point is, you know what you need to do to stay healthy and that is move and eat well. So, stop and look at how far you’ve come, pat yourself on the back, and get back on track.

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  33. Ash B
    February 28, 2012 at 10:51 pm (9 years ago)

    I have the same exercise problem. I’ve gained/lost, gained/lost so many times, it’s really hard to find the motivation to lose it all again. Every time I lose and hit the 130/140’s, something happens (hospital stay, emotional devastation, ect.). I guess I’m back to avoiding the gym because of it. The last reason? I got laid off and can’t shake the depression. When I’m happy, I move. When I’m depressed, going to the gym makes me cry. So far I’ve made it once a week this past month. I eat really well, but it’s not enough for my naturally big body.

    I’ve got some pretty shitty excuses. I hope your new plan works out better for you. Goals and plans aren’t enough to convince myself to do better. Hopefully, I’ll find what works eventually.

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  34. corrina
    February 28, 2012 at 11:49 pm (9 years ago)

    I really appreciate your insight that no matter where you are in the journey, you have to fight for it every day. That is so true!! It would certainly be nice one day if the right choices came naturally, but I don’t know if that will ever be the case. I hope you get back on track with your training and feel confident about the race!

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