Thrilled with The Gain

Going back to Weight Watchers to weigh in for the first time in a while can be pretty daunting for anyone, but I have been putting an extra layer of pressure on myself because I used to be a Leader, and was so afraid that someone might recognize me and wonder what the hell happened and where I went wrong.

When I feel the negative self-talk rise up and I know I am being hard on myself, sometimes I try to imagine that a close friend is sharing those same emotions with me, and I try to think through how I would respond to them. And usually, it’s quite different from what I say to myself (in my head mostly, luckily) and it helps me to change my tune.

I would say, “Don’t be ridiculous. Going back is a huge step in and of itself and it’s something you should be proud of, not scared of! Trust me, I know it sucks to have to face gaining weight back, but no one will be nearly as critical of you as you are. And honestly, even if someone does recognize you, what’s the worst that could happen? It would probably be refreshing more than anything because as anyone who has to lose/has lost a lot of weight genuinely understands, it’s not easy. Stop being so hard on yourself. I’ll be happy to go with you, if you like.”

I won’t share the self-directed commentary I had floating around before forcing myself to snap into gentle-mode, but suffice it to say that the version for my close friend was much kinder than the insults swirling around in my head.

As I mentioned in Monday’s post, I’ve been in a join, quit, rejoin, quit, rejoin cycle with Weight Watchers for the last year and a half plus. I went a few times throughout the year in 2015 where I saw the biggest gain from when I was Lifetime (about 35 pounds up from my goal weight), and then I went on April 26 and May 3 of this year (two weeks in a row!) and actually lost 3.8 pounds in that week, but that was followed by crickets… until yesterday.

When walking in, I honestly didn’t know what to expect with regards to what the scale would say. I haven’t been weighing myself regularly, and am not sure that I’ve been on a scale since May 3 to be honest. So, with baited breath I stood in line and soaked in the new-to-me SmartPoints merchandise while I waited for my turn at the scale. I saw a journal with a quote from the founder of Weight Watchers, and it helped reiterate that I was indeed making the right choice.

Choice Not Chance

My turn came, and as I walked over to step on the scale, I exhaled a bit when I realized that I had never laid eyes on the woman about to weigh me in my life, so she couldn’t possibly know who I was. She pulled up my profile and directed me to step on the scale, and then she goes, “Aww bummer. You’ve gained this time.”

Luckily, I had prepared myself for that, so I didn’t collapse on the spot. I did sheepishly remind her that I hadn’t weighed in since May 3 and had just recommitted the day before, and then I took back my booklet and sulked away from the scale.

But then, I opened up my booklet not sure what number would be there, and I had in fact gained weight, but it was only 1 pound since May 3! It could have been a LOT worse. I am pretty sure that’s the happiest I’ve been in my whole life from gaining a pound, so I’ll take it.

19 Comments on Thrilled with The Gain

  1. Beth R.
    July 27, 2016 at 9:55 am (4 years ago)

    I am incredibly angry about those woman’s comments. You had the courage to rejoin and recommit to losing weight, and comments like hers are why so many people struggle with weight loss. I’m sorry you had to “prepare” yourself for an experience like that. I hope moving forward, all your weigh-ins are positive experiences–regardless of gain or loss.

    • Beth
      July 27, 2016 at 10:39 am (4 years ago)

      I agree. It is pretty frustrating because the person weighing you in should not get to decide how you should feel about the results of your weigh in!! It’s also just such a vulnerable place to be, and to not get that when you’re on the other side is… sad. That’s part of why WW only hires people who have lost weight on their program so that they, “get it”. When I was a receptionist/leader, I would always make it my goal to have the person walk away from the scale feeling good about themselves. If they were beating themselves up from a gain (which I NEVER suggested they should), I would ask them what they were most proud of from their week. You want people to walk away feeling encouraged, not discouraged!

      • Lisa
        July 27, 2016 at 12:01 pm (4 years ago)

        As someone who has been playing the WW game for years, I am frustrated when nothing is said about a weight gain. While that shouldn’t be the focus it is a part of the journey. Maybe she could have asked you about your week and you could have shared that you were just getting back after being gone nearly 3 months.

        • Beth R.
          July 27, 2016 at 12:08 pm (4 years ago)

          I agree, Lisa! Holding someone accountable for a gain, and making a comment for comment’s sake are two very different things. This appears to be the latter.

    • Linda H
      October 10, 2016 at 6:07 pm (4 years ago)

      You should not be angry at the woman for speaking the truth. Being overly sensitive and angry leads to weight gain and excuses for it.

  2. Kim
    July 27, 2016 at 11:03 am (4 years ago)

    Congrats on getting back on the horse! I’ve been on the same roller coaster as you. Best of luck to you! 🙂

  3. Sarah
    July 27, 2016 at 11:19 am (4 years ago)

    Going back is the hardest step. One of the last times I went back, it had been about 5 months since I last weighed in. The receptionist reminded me of that fact before I stepped on the scale, because that gain was a reflection of a long period of time, not just a couple weeks. That helped soften the blow a little bit.

    My most frustrating comment from a receptionist though, was when I had gained .2 and he looked at me and said, “did you have a rough week?” A .2 gain is not from a rough week. That bothered me.

  4. Jane
    July 27, 2016 at 12:34 pm (4 years ago)

    Seems to me the receptionist was just commiserating on the fact you’d gained a little…why is that bad?

  5. Abdrea
    July 27, 2016 at 1:17 pm (4 years ago)

    Just restarted this week also. Have been lifetime before. Currently doing online but may switch to the at work. I stopped the at work as I was frustrated with the leader making comments. While in my last Ww cycle I was diagnosed with thyroid issues and working through meds and changes. I don’t need any snarky comments, thanks! Honestly didn’t want to go back to her this week as now my hormones have gone nuts and I gained 10 lbs in a matter of 6 weeks! Now implementing some things medicine wise and supplements that should start belong but I don’t need to hear it from Ww leader! Living with this everyday! Glad you are back on track. Look forward to following

  6. Sarah Tracy
    July 27, 2016 at 1:34 pm (4 years ago)

    So glad you are back with the program. It is so hard to come back when we feel we have failed or had a set back. This program works. I am down almost 70 pounds now since January. I believe in myself now more than ever. I am more than a number on a scale and so are you Beth. Welcome back. Look for me on Connect tracysp811. I would love to follow you and stay in touch. We Connecticut peeps have to stick together.

  7. deb
    July 28, 2016 at 7:56 am (4 years ago)

    if the females (and unfortunately, the majority of those employed at WW
    ARE females who weigh people in) would learn to keep their mouths shut
    while working the scales, the company would be far better off than it is now.
    Snarky, thoughtless comments do NOT bring in new members…maybe someone should remind them.

    bravo to you for trying again! did you ever try FITBIT and the MYFITNESSPAL app? the support system on MYFITNESSPAL is awesome and I would friend you!
    best of luck and don’t give up!

  8. Temetria
    July 28, 2016 at 10:19 am (4 years ago)

    Beth, welcome back! I’ve followed your journey and you are an inspiration. I’m in the same boat. I lost about 40 pounds a couple of years ago and have gained 30 – 35 back, while sitting in meetings every week. I was not at goal, but close and I’m kicking myself now. We can do this!
    Are you on Connect? There are some very inspirational people there, too!

  9. danielle
    July 28, 2016 at 10:34 am (4 years ago)

    Just making the decision to start is the hardest part, i think! good luck!

  10. Kimberly
    July 28, 2016 at 3:50 pm (4 years ago)

    So crazy that I was thinking about you this morning wondering how you were doing. Funny how life works that way. So great to “only” have gained a pound. You can do this!

  11. Haley
    July 28, 2016 at 10:31 pm (4 years ago)

    I recently rejoined WW as I am a Lifetimer who was 14+ lbs above my goal. I was traveling one day and had just bought the audiobook “It Starts with Food” by Dallas & Melissa Hartwig (Whole30 program). I was re-energized by their no-excuses plan to redeem my health and remembered that that was the attitude I had initially upon joining WW 11 years ago. I’m down 15 lbs and use the Whole30 plan in conjunction with calculating SmartPoints. I hope you find lasting success this time around!

  12. Victoria G.
    August 1, 2016 at 3:27 pm (4 years ago)

    This is so awesome, Beth! First, I am proud of you for facing the dreaded scale. But to only gain 1 pound in that long?! You are obviously doing something right, girl! Proud of you.


  13. Laura
    August 10, 2016 at 12:08 pm (4 years ago)

    I often find that the person weighing in just doesn’t know what to say where there’s a gain…what should they say? “Better luck next time.”? There are some times I go and know there will be a gain. My philosophy is to “Own it and Move On”. I tell everyone that when I see them wondering if they should skip the weigh-in. If my weight is up by “point something” I say “Oh, I can live with that!” If it is pound(s) I say “I can move on from that!” I try to take it away from the receptionist who may be at a loss on what to say. Let’s face it, those meetings celebrate the losses and you feel kind of “blah” if you’re not part of it. OWN IT – you know what to do! MOVE PASSED IT – no sense hovering over it! We all got this!

  14. Jhonson Bill
    November 5, 2016 at 7:05 am (4 years ago)

    This is so awesome, Beth!


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