The Real Reasons Why

For a good part of the last year or so, I’ve been wanting to focus on getting healthier and losing weight, but with so many changes and health issues along the way, I just haven’t made progress in the ways I was hoping to by now. And somehow, it’s already November and 2017 is almost behind us (thank GOD for that though), which is really hard to believe. Since I feel like I’ve stepped out of the fog hanging over the last several months, rather than letting a few more slip away with no progress, this week, I decided to rejoin Weight Watchers. And while I’ve joined a few times over the last couple years here and there, this time it feels different. I think I’m just ready to commit to making my health a priority again, and have the bandwidth to focus on it for the first time in a while.

One of the things I love about the Beyond the Scale Weight Watchers program is the whole “beyond the scale” part. At the beginning when you sign up and weigh in for the first time, they have you to take a few minutes to write why you want to lose weight. The receptionist actually had me write something down right then, which I think is good because it forces you to think about it. They say the more specific and detailed you can be the better because then you can start to visualize it, which can be pretty powerful, especially in moments of weakness.

After leaving the meeting, I’ve been thinking more about all the whys – why do I want to lose weight in general, why Weight Watchers again, why right now – and thought I’d share what I came up with. It’s really easy to list off surface level reasons, so I forced myself to dig a bit deeper with each.

  1. I don’t want to be back to the “before” and I’m terrified that’s the direction I’m heading if I don’t make some changes.
  2. Weight loss is mostly related to what I put into my body, which is something that’s totally within my control. Lately, so many things have felt outside my control, especially related to my back issues, so I’m looking forward to focusing on something where the outcome is completely up to me.
  3. I want to get excited when I see someone has tagged a picture of me on social media, rather than be filled with dread for how bad I might look in the picture.
  4. I’m currently a size 12, which is towards the top end of the range of sizes regular clothing stores carry. I want to be able to shop at regular stores, not have to go to the back of the rack to pick the biggest size they carry, and to feel good when I try on the clothes.
  5. I want to feel proud of my body again. I worked so hard to lose all the weight last time, and I’m ashamed I’ve gained some of it back, especially after undergoing plastic surgery to memorialize my hard work.
  6. I want to wear a bikini with confidence again. I vividly remember the first time I ever wore a bikini in my entire life by myself at a public pool in DC, and how liberating it felt. I truly believe that people should wear whatever they’re comfortable in, and I’m at the point where I don’t feel comfortable bearing my stomach.
  7. I want to be comfortable changing in a locker room or in front of friends again, instead of turning towards a wall and doing it quickly in a panic or going into a private bathroom stall.
  8. My parents have a long list of health issues related to being overweight, and I’m at the age where those things aren’t too far off if I don’t get it under control. My dad had a heart attack at age 40 (!) and both my parents have struggled with high blood pressure, high cholesterol, and being prediabetic/Type II diabetes. I don’t want the same fate.
  9. Holidays are a really tough time to lose or maintain weight, so rather than let myself spiral out of control these next few months, I want to focus on taking care of myself and get a head start. Time goes by so fast, especially as we get older (it’s science!) so rather than let a few more weeks turn into a few more months, I’m starting now.

6 Comments on The Real Reasons Why

  1. Sue Livore Klein
    November 2, 2017 at 12:53 pm (1 month ago)

    I’m in your corner !!

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  2. jennifer
    November 2, 2017 at 1:39 pm (1 month ago)

    so very proud of you for continually putting yourself out there. I connect with what you are going through on so many levels and remembering so clearly that moment for you at the pool. Having undergone the same procedure a few short months ago I totally understand your fears and frustrations. Every minute is open for a “do over” so hang in there, as I am sure with so many, we are there for you!

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  3. Amanda
    November 2, 2017 at 7:24 pm (1 month ago)

    I am on a similar journey. The last time I was at weight watchers was in November 2015 and have since gained more weight than I would like to admit. Good luck on your journey and I am sure you will do great!!! I look forward to following your progress.

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  4. Sahron
    November 3, 2017 at 9:40 am (1 month ago)

    Amen, sister! *\o/* I’ll gladly be your cheerleader! I have so many of the same reasons, but I’m not sure I have the same commitment you’re currently feeling. I’m hoping that reading your blog and following your journey will help inspire me to get back on track and losing the extra pounds I’ve gained. Good luck and work hard – you (we!) can do it!

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  5. Cee
    November 3, 2017 at 1:02 pm (1 month ago)

    Do you do WW online tools as well? I find Connect to be incredibly motivating!

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  6. Laura
    November 5, 2017 at 5:53 pm (1 month ago)

    I’ve been paying WW for 2 years and still haven’t lost 10 lbs. Not WW fault it is mine – my mojo just hasn’t been there. Then this week a classmate from way back when, stated on FB that I had inspired her to join WW and make her health a priority. I was quite stunned since I’ve been so bad with it, but she told me that my weight journey I shared with her back at the reunion was very inspiring and put her back on track. So now I’m getting back on track!

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