Yesterday was a BIG day for me in my weight loss journey – no pun intended. As many of you know, last month I hit my goal weight after two years, two months, and nine days of following Weight Watchers, and yesterday marked six weeks of maintaining that goal. That means I achieved Lifetime status – the ultimate goal of any Weight Watcher and something I never imagined myself being able to say! Outside of completing my first half marathon which was a big moment for me in feeling like I really had changed my life, hitting goal and achieving Lifetime have been two of the most monumental days in my life.
It’s hard to believe that seven years ago, this was me:
And now, I looked like this:
I found a big stack of photos in my apartment the other day when I was cleaning a drawer out, and I hadn’t seen them in years and years. I was glad to have found them because at my meeting yesterday after weighing in, I was asked to give a speech about hitting Lifetime, what it means for me, and what I’ve learned along the way.
I remembered to bring some of these photos with me in anticipation of that speech, because a lot of people who aren’t aware of how much I have struggled with my weight have no idea how far I’ve come.
They don’t know how much I hid behind my obesity and stood on the sidelines of my own life. They don’t know how hard it was for me to be the fat sister, daughter, friend, girlfriend, or coworker and how much I was hurting inside.
I am just not that girl anymore. Sure, that’s ME in those photos somehow, but I am so different now that I can barely remember how I lived my life back then.
One question I get asked a lot is if I’m scared about gaining it back. And the truth is – no, I’m not. Sure, I may struggle with five or ten pounds here or there, in fact I’d be more surprised if I don’t struggle with maintaining my goal weight within a few pounds. That said, I am SUCH a different person now than I was, and there is no way I’m going back there. Though the changes on the outside are easy to see, it’s the changes on the inside that are the most important.
I feel like I’ve finally become an active player in my life instead of just letting life happen to me. I’ve created my own opportunities, I’ve challenged myself in ways I never had before, and I’ve learned to expect nothing but the best from myself. Developing that confidence in myself and my ability to do ANYTHING (Hell, I’m running a marathon this year!) is one of the biggest ways I’ve changed on the inside.
In case you’re curious about logistics, here’s what I got at my meeting yesterday:
A Lifetime Pocket Guide, a Lifetime Membership card, and a key charm symbolizing my status as a Lifetime member.
To treat myself, I went and got a manicure afterwards with shellac, which is supposed to last 2 weeks with no chipping!
I’m planning on doing a few other things for myself to celebrate, but for now I’m just trying to enjoy the moment and let it all soak in.