It’s true. But so is the word awkward. This family photo probably takes the cake though:
Back to the point at hand… yesterday’s meeting did not go NEARLY as well as I was hoping.
To give a little back-story for newer readers, I’ve been working for Weight Watchers as a receptionist since March of this year. I’ve always wanted to be a Leader, but had to hit my goal weight and Lifetime before I could move forward with Leader training. I reached my goal weight in May 2011 and then became Lifetime on June 23, 2011.
After I hit Lifetime, I got the go-ahead to move forward with Leader training. I was assigned a Leader Coach, Sarah, and was sent to Basic Leader Skills in Chicago in October 2011. This was an intense three day training, and you can read about the experience here.
Yesterday marked the first time that I actually delivered a meeting, and it was rough.
I got REALLY awkward up front, and I think there were definitely a few things that contributed to it.
- It was not my meeting, so the members felt a little less comfortable with me than their normal leader, which in turn, made me uncomfortable.
- I was being observed by both my Leader Coach and my Territory Manager and they were taking notes on me the whole time, so that made me nervous.
- It was my first time giving a meeting, so that made me nervous.
- We were in a conference room, and I wasn’t familiar with the space at all.
- I was trying really hard to wait for people to talk (which is harder than it sounds!), so I came across as lower energy than I am naturally.
- I was hoping the members would talk more, so didn’t have enough questions in my arsenal for when I needed to dig deeper and encourage them to speak more.
That said, there were SOME positives of the meeting:
- As a Leader during At-Work meetings, you do both the weigh ins and deliver the meeting. I did a really good job with the weigh in portion since I’ve been doing that for so long and really came across as myself during it.
- I have pretty solid presentation skills, so I kept my voice up and did a good job listening and making eye contact with the members throughout the presentation.
- I had some good questions, and did a pretty good job with follow up questions some of the time, helping the members to have more to talk about.
- It came across that I really love Weight Watchers and know the program really well.
- I did a good job telling my story with Weight Watchers and my weight loss journey.
- My territory manager said “You are right where you should be” as feedback.
But, there were definitely a lot of negatives, as well:
- I was a lot more reserved than I am in normal situations, and this came across as being low-energy and not very enthusiastic. If you ever met me in person, it would surprise you to hear me described like that!
- I stayed in the SAME exact spot for the whole meeting, rather than moving around like I should have. This would have helped a lot with my energy/enthusiasm.
- I made a really awkward transition during the presentation from asking questions to giving awards for weight loss (it was literally out of nowhere and not smooth at all).
- I didn’t have a good sense of how long had passed, so was nervous that I was going over and then was shocked to see how little time had passed and got myself worked up over it.
- It was showing that I was pretty nervous during the presentation.
So, what happens next?
I am delivering another meeting next Tuesday morning, and I have to work on all the improvements and incorporate the feedback I got from this go-round. My territory manager will not be observing again, and I’m much more familiar with the space than I was with yesterday’s meeting, so I am hopeful that it will go a lot better! Depending on how the next one goes, I’ll either lead another meeting and be observed again, or else they’ll have me move forward with my own meetings.
And to be honest, I’m not really in that much of a rush. I want to be GOOD before they give me my own meeting, so I’m trying not to be so hard on myself and trying to take it slow. I have enough else going on this week, so I don’t want this to become a source of stress! Which, coincidentally enough, was actually the topping of this week’s meeting – Holiday Stress.