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Struggling

This is really hard for me to admit, but I had a huge slip up today on the healthy eating front. As I mentioned in my last post, I came to Minneapolis today for work and will be here for 3 nights. I waited too long to book my flight for a number of reasons, and ended up on a really crappy flight with TWO layovers. The first flight left DCA at 6am and went into Chicago, the second flight from Chicago to Milwaukee (15 minute flight!) and the third flight was from Milwaukee to Minneapolis. The third leg of the flight ended up being delayed about an hour, but I finally made it and am here at the hotel.

I always thought that when I lost the weight, I would finally “get it” and the healthy lifestyle would just click and I wouldn’t have to try so hard. When I started Weight Watchers, and they explained it was a lifestyle change and not a diet, I accepted that the changes I was making would be for life and because I was loving the results, I was OK with it. Now, I go back and forth between accepting that counting points and trying is something I’ll have to do for the rest of my life, and resenting it, depending on the day.

I remember when I walked into the first Weight Watchers meeting in March 2009 (not my first one, but the first meeting since I really changed my life) and seeing this girl who I didn’t think belonged. I remember thinking to myself “What is she doing here?” and then overheard her say to someone else that she had hit goal weight that day. Someone asked her how long it had taken her and she said “A long time… 2 years. 44 pounds.” As much of a jerk as this makes me, I was like “2 years!? No way will it take me that long!” and sort of felt a sense of pride as to how quickly I knew the weight would come off me. Now, 1.5 years later and still not at my goal, I wish I could take that sentiment back even though I didn’t say anything out loud. Everyone goes through their own journey at their own pace and has their own life to get in the way during the trip.

Now where was I going with all this? Sometimes, I just say “Screw it” in my head, and stop caring. I eat bad stuff and too much of it, and trick myself into thinking its OK and that I don’t really give a shit about it. That happened this morning. I was cranky from having to wake up at 4:30am, my cab was late getting to my apartment, and just the fact that I had to take 3 flights to get to one place. I started off with good intentions at DCA and got steel cut oats from Potbelly’s with a little bit of brown sugar and raisins. I also got a huge bottle of water, and then slept for the two hours on the plane to Chicago. I was hungry when I woke up so I decided to get something else to eat but wasn’t sure what I wanted… I went to McDonald’s and to a few other places and circled around a few times and then finally got an everything bagel with egg, no cheese, and ate the whole thing so fast. Not that a bagel with egg is bad, but it was breakfast #2 and I wasn’t really that hungry. Then, at the Milwaukee airport, my flight got delayed and I was really frustrated so I went to get a snack even though I was NOT hungry (only a 15 minute flight from Chicago to Milwaukee). I ended up getting a bag of Jalapeno Cheddar chex mix, also not THAT bad, but was planning on only having 1 serving or half the bag (just under 2 servings) and putting the rest away. Before I knew it, I had eaten the entire bag. Then, I slept on the plane from Milwaukee to Minneapolis and decided to get a coffee when I landed. I passed by a Starbucks and ordered a Venti Skinny Caramel Latte, and then the guy asked me if I wanted something to eat and I picked up dark chocolate graham crackers and ate them so quickly that they were gone before my drink was even finished being made.

So, I know that might not seem that bad, but it was just out of control eating and unnecessary. I really want to get to my goal weight soon since I’ve been doing this for so long, and I recommitted myself to being good and counting points, and then I go off and do this. The bag of Chex Mix alone was 420 calories, the latte 160 calories, the 300 calories in the chocolate covered grahams, 230 calories in the oats, and then probably 350 for the bagel with egg. So that totals 1460 calories, or as much as I should have in a whole day. My stomach hurt after eating all that and I wasn’t even satisfied.

It’s hard to admit how much I still struggle sometimes. Some days are easy and I don’t even have to try that hard to make decisions, but some days are like today. Rather than letting the spiral continue downward, I got my act together as soon as I made it to the hotel. They put me in a room originally that smelled a little weird when I walked in, and then I saw this paper on the bed that said that my back door lead to the “Backyard” which is an outdoor pool/bar and that it could get loud at night, so to request if I wanted a room change. I have to wake up super early for the course, so loud nights aren’t really an option. I asked the front desk to move me to a room near the gym if possible, so I’d have no excuse not to go. They ended up putting me in the room right next to the gym, and this room smells a lot better, is a lot bigger, and has a fridge and a microwave.

I went to the gym almost immediately and got a great workout in:

  • 12 minute warm up on the bike
  • 30 minutes walking on an incline on the treadmill, first at 4.0 mph and a level 12 incline for 15 minutes, then 4.2 mph at a level 15 incline for the second half
  • 100 jumping jacks
  • Ran 1 mile at 6.5 mph (9:13 pace)

The bike told me I burned 97 calories, and the treadmill 470 during the walk (it was intense!) and then 170 during the run. I know those numbers are super inflated, but it felt good to see big numbers in any case.

Tonight, I have to check in to the room where my course will be tomorrow around 6 tonight and make sure everything is good to go for tomorrow, and then I’m planning on going to the Mall of America to get dinner and possibly do a little low key shopping. I’ve never been to the Mall of America before and i’ve heard there are 2 full sized roller coasters inside! I’m not much of a rollercoaster person (besides on my weight loss journey.. ;)) but I’m just excited to see them!

Do you struggle with being healthy, or is it just natural for you? How do you bounce back?

Whirlwind

My life has felt like sort of a whirlwind lately because I’ve been so busy! I definitely ate much more than I wanted to this weekend, and didn’t end up working out either day. Saturday I was supposed to go to Bikram with my girlfriends, but we got stuck at the nail place for much longer than planned so ran out of time to go. My goal for this week was to work out 5x, so since I did a double workout on Friday, I nailed two out right there. Last night I went on a run after work because the humidity wasn’t too bad, and I have finally almost finalized my training plan for the half marathon, which I will share once its done. That said, I really need to start stepping up the mileage. I have been doing a lot of walk/runs lately which I know works for a lot of people, but I really want to run for the whole half marathon. I put 5 miles on my schedule for yesterday, so even when the going got tough I kept saying “You can do this” over and over in my head, and I pushed through. The final stats:

Distance: 5.01 miles

Durating: 50:40

Calories: 587

Avg. Pace: 10:05

So apparently I’ve gotten a lot slower. I used to average under 10:00 miles without trying that hard, but yesterday when I was running I felt like I was pushing hard and I’d look down and be going at a pace above a 10:00 mile. I’m not really that focused on speed, but I want to get back under 10 minute miles. I think upping my mileage will help a lot with that so my body doesn’t have to work so hard and go so far out of my comfort zone for 5 miles.

Eats were pretty repetitive yesterday and today because we were planning for guests who cancelled last minute on Sunday night, so we ended up having twice as much food as we needed. This meant we had an extremely similar dinner last night to the one on Sunday:

I barely even ate the snapper because I’d had some leftover yesterday on top of the soba noodle salad for lunch, and snapper 3x in 24 hours is a bit much. The shrimp were awesome, and this time Wil grilled them rather than boiled them. I’m not sure which one I liked better because both were so good. We had this dinner with brown rice and swiss chard from the farm share, and also this delicious sauce that Wil made with nonfat greek yogurt, sweet chili sauce, and some olive oil mayo. It was sooo good I dipped as much as I could in there.

Breakfast today was whipped banana oats:

I made 1/2 cup rolled oats (2 pts) with 1 cup water, and then blended them in a food processor with 1/2 a large banana (1 pt). I topped the bowl with 2 tbsp carob chips (1 pt) which are just OK. I go back and forth on them. I originally bought them because 2 tbsp is 1 point, whereas 1 tbsp of most dark chocolate chips is 1 pt, and I like volume. They definitely do not taste like chocolate, but they are kind of good in a weird way. They really worked in this banana oatmeal though, and I love the consistency of blending it all together because it gets fluffy and the sweetness from the banana spread throughout the bowl.

Lunch was a small portion of leftover soba noodle salad:

Which has soba noodles, edamame, red peppers, mushrooms, scallions, peanuts, and black garlic vinaigrette. I’m guessing 4 points for this portion. I also had a massaged kale salad to bulk up the lunch:

I massaged 1 tsp garlic gold oil (1 pt) into the kale (0 pts), and added 1/4 a serving of raw tempeh (1 pt), some chopped baby carrots (0 pts) and 1 oz RF feta cheese (1 pt).

Lunch was a little pointy for me, 7 in total, but it sure was delicious. 🙂

I don’t think I’ve mentioned this yet on here, but I’m actually going to Minneapolis tomorrow for work through Saturday! I’m kind of excited about it because I’m staying right near the Mall of America and I’ve never been, but I still have a lot of work to do for my desk job so its adding another thing to my plate. This trip should be easier to stay on track because I’m the only one from my office going. I tend to do well on business travel when I’m by myself, but then once my coworkers/friends arrive, I go off track. This time, my goal is to try to work out twice while I’m there between Wednesday and Friday and stay totally on track with eating.

What is your approach to healthy living while traveling? What about your best tips for staying on track?

Take Two

In my birthday celebration recap, I mentioned that I was running around like a crazy woman yesterday so didn’t have a chance to update you all on my Saturday. You might have been wondering what I was running around doing (though probably not), so I thought I’d share.

Wil had the day off too, so we decided to do some exploring in the new car and drove around for a few hours. We were in search of an Asian mart, after I promised him I’d behave more like a normal person than the last time we stumbled upon one and I was running around like a spaz. This time, we had a plan. We wanted to pick up fresh fish since two of our friends were supposed to come over for dinner, so Wil took the reigns and I just walked around the store in awe snapping pictures.

There were rows and rows of fish over ice that you could help yourself to.

Including shark:

Catfish:

Baby Snapper:

Squid:

And our purchases, whole red snapper:

And head-on shrimp:

The other thing that blew me away was the produce section. It was enormous!

There were some really cool fruit and veggies that I’d never seen before which always gets me excited.

Bitter Melon:

White Eggplant:

Donut peaches:

So cool! I was glad we had a mission and knew that we were heading to the Asian market rather than stumbling upon it since it was so huge and could be overwhelming.

Wil made an an amazing dinner inspired by what we picked up at the Asian Mart. I picked up some fresh roses to dress up the table – fresh flowers always make such a difference!

The appetizers were edamame:

And the head on shrimp cooked with sweet chili dipping sauce (also homemade):

The shrimp were SOOOOO good. Have you ever had head on shrimp? This might sound kind of nasty (and it is, but also delicious) but with head on shrimp you actually suck out the “yolk” from the head, and it is SO good. Ha, even writing that down sounds digusting, but I promise, it’s not!

Then came the main course, which I probably didn’t even need because we were so full from the shrimp and edamame, but you gotta do what you gotta do! Wil cooked the red snapper in a pan with a little bit of olive oil after marinating it in ginger and garlic:

And made an unreal chilled soba noodle salad with a black garlic vinaigrette. Black garlic is fermented garlic that has a very strong, almost vinegary flavor, and it really tasty. The soba noodle salad had red peppers, mushrooms, shelled edamame, scallions, and crushed peanuts, in addition to the dressing and noodles.

Oh.my.god. That was soooooo good. I brought leftovers for lunch yesterday and may bring them in again today. Boring, yes, but amazing? YES!

The last thing we made was sesame crackers, and this one I actually helped with! Wil made the dough which was basically regular bread dough with a little sesame oil and black sesame seeds, and then we rolled them out with the pasta maker to make them thin and cracker like. We actually used a hammer, a meat tenderizer, and a screw driver on the baking stone to give the crackers a curvy shape.

How cute are these!?

All those things together on a plate:

Such an incredible Sunday night dinner with leftovers to run into the week.

Are you good about eating leftovers? I try to be, but I feel like they tend to go bad before I get to them. When I cook, I only make enough for myself and whoever I’m cooking for, and possibly one extra portion for lunch the next day. Wil is a restaurant chef though so he makes huge portions, so any time he cooks there’s always a ton left over and we can’t get through it. I haaaate wasting food, too! Ugh!

Birthday Celebration Recap

Hi! I ended up running around like a crazy woman yesterday so didn’t have time to write about my birthday celebration and dinner, but it was fabulous! One of my best friends birthdays happens to be 3 days after mine, so we had a joint celebration. We started with a small dinner with just five of us at Brasserie Beck, which is a European style brasserie with Belgian style food. Our reservation was at 8pm and they were ready for us as soon as we got there. We started with some Prosecco and toasted to the birthday girls.

They served us plenty of bread with butter (x2):

And they were running a special that night for Gazpacho, which is one of my favorites. When they said it was topped with avocado, I knew I had to have it. 4 of the 5 of us at the table ordered it, and they brought out the bowl with the avocado and some vegetable garnish:

Then they poured the soup over the bowl tableside, which I love.

And the finished bowl:

Oh my gosh was that good! It was served cold and had an awesome flavor. The crunch of the veggies with the creaminess of the avocado worked perfectly with the soup, and it was just delicious. I had heard rave reviews about the mussels at this restaurant, so I decided to give the Curry and Apple Mussels a try.

They were served with a side of fries with a trio of dipping sauces:

And this was unreal. There were big chunks of soft apples mixed in with the mussels and the creamy broth was so delicious. While not the lightest thing on the menu, it sure was delicious. I ate every single mussel and every fry! Totally worth it though. Here’s the 5 of us after dinner:

Rachel, Jess, me, Lianne, and Amber.

I was really glad I wasn’t wearing a tight dress after that meal! 🙂

We ended up going back to Lianne’s place where more of our friends came and met us.

Andrew and Rachel – getting hitched in a few weeks!!

Steph, Kat, and Lianne

We ended up going out to Churchkey after spending some time at Lianne’s and had a blast. The bar was really cool and had over 40 beers on draft! I’m not much of a beer drinker so I just had a vodka soda at the bar, and had had enough already at that point where one drink was enough! Wil met us out at the bar:

And the two birthday girls towards the end of the night!

Such a fun night!!

hi!

I’m alive just been having technology troubles and was traveling yet again this weekend. I promise to come back tomorrow to fill you in!

Hello from BWI

Hey guys! Hope your Wednesday is going well so far. I am currently sitting in the gate waiting to board my flight at BWI airport. I lucked out majorly getting to the airport today because I hit zero traffic even though I left at 8am, prime rush hour time. Since I was going against traffic (out of dc instead of into it) it worked out well.

I made an eggwhite sandwich to take on the road which was the same as I had Monday morning, except no sriracha. I also brought along grapes, an apple, sliced cucumber, and baby carrots for snacks. I ate the breakfast sammie in the car but haven’t had any of the snacks yet. I’m blogging on my phone so ill come back with pictures tonight once I get to Oklahoma City.

I have a long day of traveling ahead of me because I lay over in Atlanta And then have my flight from Atlanta to OKC. Wish me luck!

KIND Bar Giveaway

Hey! Today is shaping up to be even worse weather-wise than I thought it’d be! I went to run some errands before lunch and it was already raining and so cold outside so I decided the errands can wait. 🙂 I got a pair of work pants hemmed that I need to pick up and I really want them, but they’ll be there tomorrow. Sigh.

It was a coworkers birthday today, so they brought in a plethora of bagels and different kinds of cream cheese to celebrate. I loove bagels, but had already had breakfast and wasn’t hungry, just wanted one because they were in front of me, and because I love honey walnut cream cheese. But, I brought out my own snack while others were munching on the bagels so I could resists:

Watermelon! It was so juicy and delicious and was the reason I could stay away from the bagels (which are ALMOST gone.. someone please take the last few!!) I hate having tempting stuff in the office kitchen all day long because I’m going in there frequently to get water, grab my snacks, lunch, etc.

Anyways, lunch was easy peasy but so delicious.. leftover Indian Food!

~1 cup of basamati rice, a little bit of chickpeas with potatoes, and the rest of the spicy eggplant. I also had 1/2 a piece of garlic naan on the side.. sooooo good. They give a salad with the delivery that I never eat on the day of, and it is always less than stellar the next day (or two days, in this case).

I doused it in the Raita which helped a bit, but I threw out most of hte cucumber pieces which were getting clearish (ick) and did not finish the salad. The eggplant, chickpeas, rice, and naan were incredible though. We ended up getting 4 meals out of the Indian food from Sunday night, which was under $30! Good deal.

And now, for my second blog giveaway… KIND Bars!

I was sent 4 of these bars to sample from the company, and had seen them in stores before, but never tried them. They are SO good, and my new favorite type of bar. They are full of nuts and fruit and all of the flavors I’ve tried were sooo good, I can’t even pick a favorite. KIND Bars has been kind enough (heh) to offer to send one of my readers some KIND Bars to sample! If you haven’t tried these yet, this is an awesome chance to try them for free, and if you’ve already tried them you’ll know how good they are, and who wouldn’t want free KIND bars!? There are 4 ways to enter, but #1 is mandatory:

  1. Browse the Kind Bar website and tell me which flavor you’d like to try, or if you’ve already had them, tell me your favorite one!
  2. Add me on Google Reader or subscribe to Beth’s Journey by email and leave a comment saying you have. If you’re already a subscriber, just leave a comment saying so!
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  4. If you have a blog, mention this giveaway and link to it from your blog for an extra entry!

This contest will end 5pm EST on Friday, May 14th. Good luck!!

Just Another Snacky Day

Today was a super snacky day, so I went with it. Lunch kept me full for a few hours, so I didn’t have a snack until 4:30pm at work and then I was really hungry. I had the only snack I brought with me – an orange.

I cut the orange into sections and then decided to cut them in half again – doesn’t this look like so much? It felt that way! It took me a lot longer to eat than usual, so I think I’m going to cut them up like this from now on. When I got home from work, I was still pretty hungry, so I decided to have a piece of toast with almond butter.

I added the last of the dried cherries to this piece of bread and it was goooood.

I couldn’t figure out what to have for dinner, so I threw together another snack while I was figuring it out.

This is a tomato from the Farmer’s Market sliced up and topped with torn basil and fresh mozzarella. I had half of these and shared the rest with my boyfriend. While eating these, I decided I needed more cheese, so figured that quesadillas for dinner would be the way to go. I sauteed some red onion, then added frozen corn and baby spinach to bulk up the quesadilla. They turned out awesome.

See how the veggies and cheese are oozing out? Mmmm!

I served the quesadilla with a simple arugula salad with fresh grated parmesan and a drizzle of olive oil. SO good!

I was craving something sweet after that, so I broke into the tart frozen yogurt from Trader Joe’s and had it on a cone.

This stuff is SO good. It tastes kind of like soft serve fro yo that you’d get from a shop, but its a lot creamier than that and I love having it on an ice cream cone!

I’ve officially closed my kitchen so that’s the end of that. I took another day off from working out, so I’m going to do a hardcore workout tomorrow. It’s supposed to be pretty rainy tomorrow so it might have to be inside. blah. Back to my plan of having a more substantial snack in the afternoon.. I really think it helps hold me off from snacking from when I get home until after dinner…

Nurse Jackie tonight!! Good night!

Chef Geoff Tysons

After my delish salad, I hopped in the shower and then went to meet my boyfriend at Chef Geoff Tysons. I was still pretty hungry from the (almost) 10 mile run, so we decided to sit at the bar and have a drink and some food. I got a glass of the Torrontes (just one!), which is a white from Argentina.

I perused the menu and the Tuna Sashimi Napoleon with Wasabi Aioli was calling my name.

The picture doesn’t really do it justice. The ahi tuna is mixed with wasabi aioli, and then its stacked between baked wonton crisps, and then has some crunchy wonton strips on top. There was also a soy vinaigrette on the plate – soooo good. I wanted to get a little something else too, so I ordered a side of green beans with no butter

These were cooked perfectly – still a little crisp, and with a dusting of sea salt. I ate about 3/4 of the beans (there were a lot!) and all of sashimi except for a few wonton strips. I decided I wanted something sweet after I was done with those, so I asked what kind of sorbet they had – coconut, passion fruit, or raspberry. I went with a scoop of the raspberry.

It came with a cinnamon biscotti and I ate all of it. Delicious way to end my day! And we’re actually going back there for brunch tomorrow to check it out and I love brunch so I’m excited!

PS: I am definitely starting to feel sore already so keep your fingers crossed that I’m able to walk tomorrow 😉

Have a good night!

Moose

Morning! It is still so amazing outside, it makes it so hard to want to be (aka stay) in the office!

I finally finished Moose this morning on the way into work and highly recommend it! If you’ve ever had any issues with your weight or body image in general, I think it’s provides a great perspective on the issue. The book really opens your eyes to the fact that most people who are thin have to work at it. And, a lot of people who struggle with their weight and/or body image will struggle for the rest of their life.  I think when you are heavier, you tend to feel like it’s unfair that you’re heavy and you wish you could just eat whatever you want like all the naturally thin people and not gain weight. I speak from experience. But, the reality is, this is not usually the case. Stephanie Klein provides a light hearted and funny memoir about her lifelong struggles with weight, and if you are looking for a quick, entertaining read, get this book!

Breakfast today was not terribly exciting, but delicious none the less.

I also had

and of course…

a large Dunkin Donuts Coffee (black).

Because it’s so nice outside, I think I’m going to eat lunch in the sunshine! This weather seriously makes me so happy I feel like I’m bouncing off the walls. And, tomorrow is Friday!! Life is good. 🙂

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