Broken Record

I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again I’m sure, but I honestly feel a lot of times like the Weight Watchers meetings are more for me than for the members. This week’s topic is about slip ups and how to learn from them and use them as spring boards for success. Being in a room full of people who "get it" and who share their own tips and strategies for bouncing back after they fall off the wagon is such a refreshing place to be. Yesterday morning’s meeting really struck a cord with me and I left there feeling recharged and ready to recommit, finally.

I can’t even go back in time to pinpoint exactly WHEN I fell off the wagon, but here I am struggling to climb back on it. I am a champion at coming up with a million excuses as to why I had stopped caring – taking a new job, lots of traveling, my birthday weekend, weddings, focusing on dating/my social life and not necessarily weight loss – but I’ll spare you from getting too into it. They are just that – excuses. I am not at all alone in having a ton of things going on in my life, and it’s up to me to make weight loss and being healthy a priority.

Over the last several months, I’ve been sort of in a haze with Weight Watchers. I’ve still led my weekly meeting, but I basically stopped exercising, cooking, and eating healthy. I dubbed the start of my new job the time to recommit to being healthy, but that first week, I ate out every single meal. While breakfasts/lunches were healthy, dinners were not and involved way too many drinks. I also didn’t work out even once, which wasn’t that unusual because my exercise routine had been spotty at best for the last several months. Several weeks of no working out, 1 or 2 workouts max, and just very inconsistent activity levels. Couple that with unhealthy eating and too much drinking and going out, and guess what you get?

Weight gain!

Shocking, I know.

I’ve been trying to avoid it and pretend it hasn’t happened, but it has. I can feel it in my clothes and see it in my face and I don’t like it. I wish it was easier to do what I know I need to to get back to where I want to be, but it’s not. I have to be mindful of what I eat and drink, and make exercising a priority. It sounds so simple, but it’s much harder to execute than it is to talk about it, as we all know.

Last week, I wrote a post at the beginning of the week setting some weekly goals and sharing my menu plan. It helped me to ease back into a healthy lifestyle, and I’m proud to say that I ended up working out 4 days last week. I also ate several meals at home and brought my lunch to work every day except for Friday. I tried hard to be healthy throughout the week, but then with birthday celebrations over the weekend including happy hour turned into night out on Friday, all day tubing on Saturday followed by a night out, and then a boozy brunch on Sunday, it shouldn’t surprise you to know that I undid all the progress I had made weight-wise.

This week, I have less going on this weekend and no birthdays to celebrate, so I’m hopeful that I can make good decisions throughout the week and weekend and make some progress. I leave a week from tomorrow for St. Maarten for one of my best friend’s weddings, and I really want to look and feel my best, since there will be a lot of photos. Not to mention the fact that I will be in a bathing suit in front of a lot of people. So there’s that.

So far, I did a 30 minute interval run on Monday, and woke up early to go to Body Pump this morning, followed by 15 minutes of intervals on the stairmaster. I’d like to workout tomorrow and/or Friday as well, and really focus on sticking within my daily PointsPlus for the rest of the week. I also want to try to limit drinking, though I do have a couple things going on later this week so I’ll try to stick to 2 glasses of wine (7 pts+!) so I don’t blow the bank points wise, or get to the point where I care less about making bad food choices.

I honestly feel sort of like a broken record because I know I’ve committed many, many times to recommitting, and here I am doing it again. But this just goes to show that leading a healthy life requires constant attention and good decision making. It’s all about making one good decision, and then another, and then another, rather than big picture thinking “I’m going to be healthy!”.

And could this fortune I got my first week at the new job be any more fitting?

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Tell me.. what is your favorite inspirational quote?

52 Comments on Broken Record

  1. Kate
    July 11, 2012 at 11:21 am (7 years ago)

    This is exactly what I needed to read today!!!! I have been recommitting to WW all summer and then vacation happens and then I dont want to go weigh in. UGH so I will go to weigh-in tonight. Then on vacation next week I will focus on working out and tracking as best I can.

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:58 pm (7 years ago)

      Good for you!! Face the music and realize that today is a fresh start. Last week’s topic was vacation renovation and this week is about turning slip ups into successes – – great topics!!

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  2. Katie @ Year of Katie
    July 11, 2012 at 11:34 am (7 years ago)

    Beth-
    It’s really nice to read that even people like you–WW leaders, popular healthy living bloggers, weight loss success stories–have “broken record” moments. I can’t tell you how often I feel like I need to recommit, and how often I announce that to my friends and family.

    The part in your post about focusing on things like your new job and social life really resonated with me. I want so badly to finish losing weight by the end of the year, but I just moved to a new town and I’m trying to make new friends and get settled in my first full time job since graduating. Last night I actually almost started crying because all of my friends were getting ready to go to a party and I was struggling with going out with them or staying in to do a work out and go to sleep on time. I ended up staying in, and I did work out, but I definitely did a little emotional eating before bed. Conundrum… stay in and be upset and bitter (which is not a healthy mindset when it comes to emotional eaters), or go out and have fun with my friends, but drink and lose valuable sleep?

    Sometimes I feel like I’ve been treading water for years, and my legs and arms are getting tired, and I’m struggling to keep my head from going under.

    I’m trying to remember that health is holistic, and that the other areas of my life are thriving. The same goes for you. 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 2:02 pm (7 years ago)

      It’s so hard to keep wanting to lose weight front and center at all times. Since breaking up with my ex last year, I’ve really tried to focus on growing my social circle and enjoying being single, but that makes it so tough to stay on track with all the drinking (and then crappy eating) that inevitably results from that. I’ve decided I’m going to start trying to make night plans that involve a workout class and a healthy dinner, or just healthy dates with friends. Those were one of the big key things that I did when I was losing so that I still felt like I had a life!

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  3. Kim @ Living, Laughing & Losing
    July 11, 2012 at 11:38 am (7 years ago)

    I can’t even tell you how many times I’ve fallen off and gotten back on the wagon. I think they key is recognizing how bad you feel when you’re off and knowing what you need to do to get back on. It’s never easy, but I instantly feel better when I’m moving and properly fueling my body. It wouldn’t be considered a journey if it were easy. Congrats on starting the week off on the right foot! 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:57 pm (7 years ago)

      I totally agree. The other key is to take it day by day, meal by meal, minute by minute. It can be too easy to get overwhelmed/discouraged if I don’t focus on the little things!

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  4. Bailey @ Onederland or Bust!
    July 11, 2012 at 11:43 am (7 years ago)

    I feel like I’m constantly recommitting to weight loss as well. It’s frustrating and discouraging, but we all go through it. It’s nice to read other people’s stories and it gives us all motivation to try our best and continue down the path to success 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:54 pm (7 years ago)

      It’s a constant struggle, that’s for sure!

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  5. Heather
    July 11, 2012 at 11:52 am (7 years ago)

    Please don’t ever feel that you should feel bad, or guilty, or repetitive when you recommit. Chances are, there are many, many of us readers who are in the same boat. (Cough, like me, cough.) I think recommitting is inspiring, and I did it myself on Monday. YAY US!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:53 pm (7 years ago)

      Thanks, Heather. We can do this!!

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  6. Gretchen @ Honey, I Shrunk the Gretchen!
    July 11, 2012 at 12:21 pm (7 years ago)

    Great post, Beth, and don’t worry — you are SO not alone. I am struggling with this exact same thing, not only the slipping up, not only the weight gain or lack of losing, but the fact that somewhere along the line, I stopped caring as much about any of it. I’m still struggling to get back to this place where I really am fully recommitted to my health, weight loss, and blog, rather than just talking about it without actually following through with my actions. It’s encouraging to see you struggling with the same things, and still coming back. It is so human for us to go through phases with regard to our health, but that doesn’t make it any easier to admit in a public forum like our blogs. You’re still my favorite success story. 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:50 pm (7 years ago)

      I think that’s really it. It’s tough to want to prioritize weight loss all the time, especially when you’re young and want to have fun! That said, it’s always a priority when I’m trying to figure out what to wear in the morning, but if I’m out for drinks after work, not so much… 🙂

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  7. Lauren @ Oatmeal after Spinning
    July 11, 2012 at 1:05 pm (7 years ago)

    I don’t think you sound like a broken record at all- and know that no one is judging you. Struggling with weight loss is a life-long challenge. It will NEVER get easy- but it might get easiER. I think you have to find your groove with exercise. Even though I’ve fallen off the mindful eating wagon time and time again, exercise is something I have never slacked in- because it’s something I truly love and make a priority every day. Oh- and getting paid to be a Spin and Bodypump instructor definitely helps- all of my workouts are scheduled and i HAVE to show up! I didn’t find my niche with exercise right away, but now know that it’s always going to be a constant in my life.
    Eating mindfully on the other hand- not so easy. Some days I’m great, but then I’ll slip up and not care for weeks… and hence the “broken record” of “getting back in the saddle” comes into play.
    Congrats on getting back on track- time to just focus on YOU and what makes you feel good.

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:49 pm (7 years ago)

      Thanks for your encouraging words, Lauren. Maybe I should think about becoming an instructor!

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  8. Edita
    July 11, 2012 at 1:38 pm (7 years ago)

    It’s kind of nice to hear someone be upfront and admit that they’re struggling with getting back on the wagon. Obviously the struggle isn’t nice but it’s good for the rest of us to know we’re not alone and that opens up the possibility for a support system to be created. I’m going through pretty much the same thing and I keep making excuses or setting point where, “When suchandsuchevent happens, NO MORE! Back on track!” but it’s really not that easy.

    I think most of us started to get healthy gradually and you have to recommit gradually. Forgive yourself for slipups and just get back to it as best you can. Even if you only ate healthy for four lunches out of the week, that’s still heaps better than no healthy meals at all, right?

    So yeah – thanks for telling your story and good luck – you can do it, we all can 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 2:07 pm (7 years ago)

      Edita – Thanks for your thoughtful comment! I think that’s exactly what last week was – an ease back into the lifestyle. I worked out 4 times (which is 4 more times than the week before) and also tried to eat healthy during the day. Baby steps, right? Last night I actually went out and had some drinks and nachos, but I tracked everything and still have 24 weekly points left. I started today off with a great workout and feel really good at the moment, despite the fact that I’ve been recommitted fully for less than 24 hours. 🙂 One day at a time!

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  9. MelanieF
    July 11, 2012 at 1:39 pm (7 years ago)

    I appreciate your honesty, Beth. I re-commited to weight loss almost 7 weeks ago and I have lost 11.8 pounds so far. But, I know that it’s never easy and that I will have to deal with my weight for the rest of my life. So, know that we are all behind you and stay strong! You will get back on track!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 1:45 pm (7 years ago)

      Wow! 11.8 lbs in 7 weeks is VERY encouraging! Congratulations on your success!!!

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  10. Lauren @ Lettuce Eat Cake
    July 11, 2012 at 2:45 pm (7 years ago)

    Oh, I have most certainly been here before! I’ve been trying to deny my gain for well over a year now, and I have no idea how to stop the cycle of denial. My biggest issue is scale avoidance. I haven’t weighed myself in almost a year. I have an idea of what I weigh based on how my clothes are fitting, but I’m long overdue to face the number and start changing it. Like you, I feel like I’ve just had different priorities (and plenty of excuses–getting married, new job, buying a house, grandmother passing away, but excuses all the same). I have been feeling so down about it, almost like I’m too mad at myself to devote some loving energy toward making any progress. Then I read a post from B*tchCakes about her regain (not sure if you follow her blog, but here’s the link http://www.sherylyvette.com/2012/05/forever.html) that literally brought me to tears. It about loving yourself and being kind to yourself no matter what the scale says. I realized I’ve been hanging on to this guilt for dear life because I didn’t want to admit that this bigger person is still me. Like, I was siding with Thinner Lauren, and Thinner Lauren and I were very, VERY disappointed in Bigger Lauren for letting this gain happen. But it’s all ME. And I’m not getting anywhere with all this guilt.

    I think you have such a fantastic attitude, Beth, and that fact that you are open and honest about the struggles we all face makes me love your posts even more. I feel like many healthy living bloggers have never known what it’s like to really, truly STRUGGLE with your weight, and know that it has to be a focus for your entire life. Your voice is so needed in this space. Here’s hoping we can get back on track together!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 2:58 pm (7 years ago)

      Lauren – Thank you SO MUCH for your kind words. It’s so nice to know that others are in the same boat, and are just as gifted as coming up with excuses I am! Also, thanks for sharing Sheryl’s post – i am going to head over to check it out later. I know stepping on the scale can be the hardest part (though easiest to avoid!) and with that, I think it’s important to set goals based on where we are NOW, not where we once were. It’s so easy to get caught up in guilt and shame about weight regain – but as you can see from the comments on this post (and from living our own lives!) it happens, and here we are. Here’s to getting back on track!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 3:04 pm (7 years ago)

      And WOW i have to reply again after reading that post. How perfect and inspiring and relatable. And true. Thank you for sharing!!!

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  11. Jay
    July 11, 2012 at 3:03 pm (7 years ago)

    It’s very easy to say make lifestyle changes and it’s not a diet but for many reasons- years of overeating habits, social lives, boredom etc it is so difficult to commit to that “permanent change in lifestyle” it’s hard but all you can do is try and do better.
    It’s a constant recommitment and I agree with above posters it’s easier at times but never easy and sometimes so hard! I try not to think of it as yo-yo but a constant effort to change that lifestyle. Years of habits are hard to break! And “bad for you” food is wired to make us want it! So don’t be hard on yourself and just try your best 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 3:03 pm (7 years ago)

      Thanks for the encouragement, Jay! I appreciate it more than you know!

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  12. Iris Lee
    July 11, 2012 at 3:32 pm (7 years ago)

    Hi Beth!! I’ve been following along for a while but don’t think I’ve ever commented. First, I just want to say that I always love reading your thoughts and really admire your honesty – both with yourself and with your readers! This post really came at the right time… I have also recommitted to recommitting to recommit! I find it pretty exhausting to always be recommitting, but I think it’s really easy to lose sight of how far we’ve already come. Someone once told me to strive for progress, not perfection. That makes life a lot easier! 🙂 It might not seem like it now, but one day we will look back and realize that all this recommitting made us stronger!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 3:37 pm (7 years ago)

      Hi Iris! Thanks for your comment. I love the “recommitted to recommitting to recommit” line. LOL. Sounds like you can relate! 🙂

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  13. Kristina
    July 11, 2012 at 4:17 pm (7 years ago)

    Beth, thank you so much for this post. I feel the same way you do– with so much going on in my life, it’s easy to make excuses. I too feel like I’ve recommitted so many times. But you know what? Recommitting a million times is better than doing nothing to change. You seriously always inspire me and motivate me, but the thing I love most about your blog is your relatability. It helps us feel like we’re not alone in our own journey and that other people “get it” — like your WW meeting to you, your blog is refreshing to us, even if we’re not physically meeting. Thank you!!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 4:18 pm (7 years ago)

      Thanks for your comment, Kristina! It really is so nice to have a community of people who get it. The comments on this post make me feel so supported and like I’m not alone, and that is really a great feeling!

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  14. Hilary
    July 11, 2012 at 4:22 pm (7 years ago)

    Ooh…great quote! I love “there is no growth in your comfort zone and no comfort in your growth zone.”… tough, but true!

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 4:23 pm (7 years ago)

      Oh I LOVE that! Thank you for sharing!

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  15. Christy
    July 11, 2012 at 4:32 pm (7 years ago)

    Thank you for sharing this today! I am in the same boat. I had been struggling the past few months and only ended up losing 3-4 pounds. But a few weeks ago after a sprinting session on the treadmill I think I have a stress fracture. Having my workouts limited to only biking or rowing has been tough on me mentally. So when we had a lot of social engagements the past few weeks I was not as diligent as I should have been. Now my clothes are tight and feel like I set myself back 6 months! I am so frustrated with myself but it’s definitely reassuring to know that even people that I admire (like yourself!) also have setbacks. So thank you again for always being so honest.

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 4:58 pm (7 years ago)

      Christy – thank you for your comment! Injuries can definitely be really hard mentally, and exercise and eating go so hand-in-hand for me, so when one is lacking so is the other. I do think you should pride yourself on the fact that you have been doing what you can despite your limitations – biking and rowing are both great workouts! Though, it’s really hard to lose any progress you’ve made, which is what I’m struggling with now. I am back to having almost 20 lbs to go, and I need to figure out the way to balance living my life with losing/maintaining weight. It’s SO hard!

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  16. Christy
    July 11, 2012 at 5:02 pm (7 years ago)

    Oh and did I mention I have a toddler at home? I don’t know how other mom’s don’t eat the entire house during naptime! I feel like I have been “on” the entire day and just want something for myself….which ends up being a very unhealthy snack….or snacks. lol

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    • Beth
      July 11, 2012 at 5:25 pm (7 years ago)

      i KNOW. I used to babysit a ton and even now when I watch my niece/nephew, I eat so many scraps from what they eat that it gets out of control. Not to mention how much stress it causes watching the kiddos. Major props to you!

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  17. Phyllis Apkarian-Gaumond
    July 11, 2012 at 7:32 pm (7 years ago)

    Beth, Beth, Beth. You are such an inspiration. I’m 64, weigh too much for my 5’4″ frame, and I have bilateral knee replacements, and I did my first timed one mile walk last month in an event at Church. While I was bringing up the rear, many were asking me if I wanted to give up. I said, no, I want to finish. More people joined me who weren’t registered with the race, but I continued, and ended up 2nd in my division. Of course there were only 2 people in the division of 60 – 69 year olds. But I got an award. I got an award because I risked and succeeded. And while proving to the most important person, me, that I could do it. I’ve now joined a gym, and I will risk more to see how I can succeed at the next. I’ve dropped out of WW because I couldn’t handle the anxiety about weighing in. But I’ve chosen movement instead of sitting, that even at my age can make a difference. Thank you for your running history. I too have a number and my reward and it is going in a frame. It is all good. Struggle is good, because it teaches us volumes. And then when success comes, it is all the more glorious. Thank you Beth for being you. All of you. Success and struggles. All of it is good!

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    • Beth
      July 12, 2012 at 10:10 am (7 years ago)

      Your comment gave me chills! How awesome for you to place in your division (regardless of how many people there were) and for taking a risk and succeeding! And I love your point about success being all the more sweet when you experience struggles – so true!

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  18. Alicia @ LiveAliciaLive
    July 11, 2012 at 8:53 pm (7 years ago)

    Truth is truth. And this post is full of truth. I had a weekend much like yours last weekend, except with more ice cream in place of the alcohol. But honestly, once I made the decision not to guilt myself about it, I just let go. And after all the crappy food, I didn’t want more crap. I wanted leafy salads and happy food. Like Rafiki says in The Lion King, “You can’t change it, it’s in the past.” So you move on!

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    • Beth
      July 12, 2012 at 10:08 am (7 years ago)

      Mmm ice cream! 🙂 But really, eating like crap for a while actually makes your body crave healthy stuff, which is a good thing! I think focusing on moving on from where I am now, rather than where I once was, is the most important thing.

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  19. Bonnie
    July 11, 2012 at 9:42 pm (7 years ago)

    Oh sweet Beth. Your journey is so much like the rest of ours except that you decided to make your public. I admire you so greatly for that. I know I learn from you from not only your successes but by your trials. Good for you that you are facing the truth and moving on. As Jillian Michaels says “just do the work”.

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    • Beth
      July 12, 2012 at 10:06 am (7 years ago)

      Catch-22! I feel so much more guilty when I fall off track sometimes since I have to make a public announcement about it, but I do think it’s incredible that even when I’m not successful I can influence others. That’s why I started it in the first place, though I have to say I really did think I’d have it figured out by now!

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  20. Tori
    July 11, 2012 at 9:50 pm (7 years ago)

    Oh Beth, I literally just blogged about this week’s WW meeting. While I’m not a WW leader, and still have a lot of pounds to go before I am at my goal weight with WW, the meeting was really, really helpful for me listening to my leader/other WWers.

    I have no doubt that you will get back on the right track! And you are SO not a broken record. I think that on everyone’s journey, we all kinda become complacent with it and step back, and that’s okay, as long as we get back to it when we find the right mindset. 🙂

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    • Beth
      July 12, 2012 at 10:04 am (7 years ago)

      I’m gonna check out your post! It really was an awesome meeting this week. I love hearing people’s tips and tricks and feel like I’m at an advantage since I get to hear so many ideas as a leader!

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  21. Laura
    July 12, 2012 at 8:32 am (7 years ago)

    Beth,
    I love reading your blog and that you are so honest with what you put out there. I am having a baby next week, have gained back 40 of the 65 pounds I lost on WW and am scared I’m not going to be successful getting it back off. I just have to remember that it all takes time. This is my favorite inspriational quote and think it applies very well to your post.

    “I never start over. Starting over implies that you didn’t learn anything on your last weight loss attempt. Give yourself some credit – if you were on a road trip would you go home and unpack your suitcase every time you made a wrong turn?”

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    • Beth
      July 12, 2012 at 10:03 am (7 years ago)

      First of all, congrats on your impending new baby! How exciting! And second of all – that quote is incredible. I’ve never heard it before and love it!

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  22. latina barbi
    July 12, 2012 at 10:54 am (7 years ago)

    Hi Beth,
    I have the sema exact problem..I do great breakfast and lunch..then a friend invites me out. I had to switch from wine to light beer because I get fuller faster. I seem to celebrate EVERY Saturday after weigh in then spend the rest of the week trying to undo the damage. Viscious cycle! So I’m down 56.8 lbs and stil need 13lbs to go! wish us both luck! MUAH!

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  23. Felicity @ Waist & Wallet
    July 12, 2012 at 11:26 am (7 years ago)

    My biggest problem is that when I start to slip off the wagon, I use it as an excuse to just jump off all together. A reader posted the following on my blog and now I try and think in these terms when I’m feeling the urge to jump…

    “When you get a flat tire, you don’t go and put holes in the other 3 tires.”

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  24. Jennifer
    July 12, 2012 at 7:36 pm (7 years ago)

    I’m struggling to get back in weight loss mode myself. I know what I need to do, just need to buckle down and do it.

    I heard this one from Jillian Michaels: “Why would you choose failure when success is an option?”

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  25. Brenda
    July 13, 2012 at 12:26 am (7 years ago)

    Hi, I am so with you on this maintenace issue. I attained lifetime status last year and also became a ww leader and it’s hard! I think that the topic was really well timed for me since I have really been trying to balance eating and exercise. email me if you like . I check your blog often to get tips for fueling for activity and such. Thanks for being you.

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  26. Lindsey
    July 13, 2012 at 7:37 pm (7 years ago)

    I wish I had some great inspirational quote to offer, but if I did, maybe I wouldn’t be struggling so much!

    Falling off the wagon/recommitting to WW must be the theme of the summer, because I’m dealing with it too. After the derecho and power-less week, I am having the hardest time (for whatever reason!) getting back in the game, after having two really fantastic on-plan months following my last recommitment in May.

    I’m thinking of switching from Flex Points to Points Plus, maybe to shake things up and give myself a truly fresh start. I’ll have to do more research.

    Thanks for such great timing on this post and sharing your struggle, even as a Leader!

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